i realised i've been ranting about my job to others whenever they pop this question or something related "how's work?". people says just let out what's on your mind, and you'll be fine. i guess this does not work on me. the more i say out, the more discouraging/demoralizing/upset/depressed/emo i'll feel. so i guess i'll have to keep my mouth shut, stop complaining/ranting, do my part, FULL STOP. -_- that's life i guess.. to me, yup, gotta hang in there. because i have tons of commitments now. different status as before.

imagine if i am jobless now? O.O think the max i can sustain is 1 month?? if i found a job before i leave, will the company let me go off early on 2 of the weekdays for my lessons? will they adjust my salary accordingly when i graduate this December? a lot of question marks.. i feel like being a home maker, but i do not have the courage and the luxury to do that.

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i've decided (after much consideration) to undergo treatment to remove my milia seeds. the laser costs $100 to remove all, done by doctor. it'll take 1 week to recover. or maybe slightly more than a week to let the wound fully heal up. i think i need to pop panadol before going.. its bloody painful! x.x

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i just can't stop buying things. am i sick or what? too stress? retail therapy?

4/06/2009 11:55:00 PM