Thursday, June 25, 2009 ♥
i do hate myself at times. i simply can't control my "comparing" mentality. if i see people's wedding photos, i'll be worried if mine will turn out as nice, or even nicer. i'm worried how people see me. when i see people bought new house, i'll mind if the house (after reno) will turn out to be nicer than mine, cos i know i did not really reno it, due to budget constraint. to be honest, i am still trying to fit stuff into the house. just gotten a sofa for our bedroom. 1/2 of the living room still empty.
argh! when will i stop the comparing thingy??? -__-
argh! when will i stop the comparing thingy??? -__-
6/25/2009 11:32:00 PM 
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 ♥
ah ma must be still awake right now, even though she is lying on her mattress (appears to be sleeping).. if i'm her, i will not be able to sleep as well. her younger sister (my grandaunt) is diagnosed with cancer, last stage. all her organs are down. doc says she can't pull through tonight. ah ma was with her at the hospital since 4pm+ till just now (10pm). she seen all her family members, made calls to China (relatives) to inform them that she is leaving... ask them to take care and not to worry.. then at night time, she started calling out names of our late family members (including my ah gong). ah ma said she kept yelling out his name and kept crying.. suddenly, my eyes went teary, but i tried to control. (i miss my ah gong) he told my grandaunt to relate to ah ma that he needs some clothes and money, which we will arrange to burn for him at the last day of funeral. grandaunt will pass to him.
grandaunt told ah ma that all of them have came to fetch her.. but it is not the 'right' time yet. she wants to choose a 'good' timing to leave. when ah ma described how she looked like right now (all skinny and boney), her voice trembled with slight sobbing. so i quickly changed topic. she says she see her sister like that very sad. from a healthy bah bah lady became now, so skinny, cheeks sunken in, no meat on her hands. grandaunt just came back from her China holiday/relatives visiting trip last month, then was diagnosed with cancer. just 1, 2 weeks ago, then doc confirms it (cos need to go through a lot of tests).
i really hope i can bring ah ma for holiday (to Taiwan) when she is still able to work around, able to travel far.. this is what i want to do for her.. actually we should have went in mar/apr this year. but some things screwed up, so.... -__-
i wonder if i can fell asleep tonight.......
grandaunt told ah ma that all of them have came to fetch her.. but it is not the 'right' time yet. she wants to choose a 'good' timing to leave. when ah ma described how she looked like right now (all skinny and boney), her voice trembled with slight sobbing. so i quickly changed topic. she says she see her sister like that very sad. from a healthy bah bah lady became now, so skinny, cheeks sunken in, no meat on her hands. grandaunt just came back from her China holiday/relatives visiting trip last month, then was diagnosed with cancer. just 1, 2 weeks ago, then doc confirms it (cos need to go through a lot of tests).
i really hope i can bring ah ma for holiday (to Taiwan) when she is still able to work around, able to travel far.. this is what i want to do for her.. actually we should have went in mar/apr this year. but some things screwed up, so.... -__-
i wonder if i can fell asleep tonight.......
6/23/2009 11:28:00 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 ♥
feeling blue~ *emo* suddenly feel blue~
6/17/2009 09:58:00 PM
Monday, June 08, 2009 ♥
loooooong post..
Bintan Trip 2009 ♥ (pre-honeymoon trip (which should have taken place in Dec 08))
040609 - first day (relaxing one)
on the ferry to our vacation~
we got into the pool almost immediately upon reaching. it was 10am (Bintan time)..
love this poolside bar =]
cheers!
do we look like crabs? hahaha..
love love~
hiding :p
i am SWIMMING!!!
muackSSS!
our first meal and last meal of day 1 (beef burger). this gave me terrible vomiting and LS-ing at night -__-" i did not touch tomato sauce and beef for the rest of the trip.......
~~~
050609 - second day (adventurous one)
just woke up =D
different look??
thirsty! lime soda =)
feeling bored.. hee..
spotted this when we were walking back to our room :p
vroooooom~
when can i really drive?? *rub chin*
in the lift
~*~
preparing for our mangrove tour (=
smile!~
while waiting for the shuttle bus at the lobby.
ok.. i am a copycat :p
blurred.. on the bus...
reached!!!
nice view~
local family staying here. the tour guide said there's no electricity there. so they usually sleep in after dinner time.. boring hor?? =S
the mangrove tour head office. we came here to collect information (small slip) on insurance compensation for this tour :p sounds so scary. hahaha...
charcoal factory (no longer in function le)
love this!
oil tank
fisherman's boat =]
mangrove
the little girl behind him is very cute :p
mangrove snake. it is poisonous, blind in the day, active at night. he kept worrying that it will fall off the branches and land on us o.O
ribbon roots of mangrove
oldest mangrove
the brown round thing is atap seed! yums! =D
pandan leaves.. they have thorns on the side o.o
tour ending, on the way back to the terminal.
~*~
headed to the pool again after the tour. hahahaha... our 2nd and last meal of day 2. club sandwich, nice! i love the crinkle fries!
night view from our room..
on the phone with a local... arranging for a tour at angsana resort.
~~~
060609 - third day (breathtaking one)
outfit of the day :)
used fancl for this trip for my face and body =]
this packet of chips costs me $5 -__-"
seaview
banyan tree bintan!!! USD700 for 3D2N stay!!! whoa!
angsana resort
this angsana tour took us 4hrs... why? they tried to sell us their laguna holiday club membership which costs..... S$24k!!!! siao!!! hahahaha... of cos we made 0 purchase la.. crazy leh! even though the manager worked out a $4400 plan for us, we still rejected. the plan will let us get 21 days stay in angsana 1 bedroom suite. but, the max we will go to bintan for relaxing trip is once a year, and max is 4 days per stay. paying so much upfront is not worth it.. furthermore i can buy 4 LV bags with $4400. LOL!!! he agreed too! but didn't say wanna buy me 4 LV bags :p *off track* anyway, at the end of this tour, regardless whether we sign or reject the package, we will still get a 3D2N stay in angsana 1 bedroom suite, valid for 1 year =) heh... but its costly to stay there even if there's free accomodation. cos everything is in USD... very very expensive lor.. zzz...
~*~
back to bintan lagoon.. keke...
spot him?? (he's waving at me)
then back to pool again.. LOL.. we kept shifting :p
feeling bored and snatched my nds from me -.-
a guy with a melody stylus and an nds with kuromi sticker on it!
candid shot =D
~~~
070609 - fourth day (3yrs 11mths anniversary)
squirrel! finally!!! something nice for the trip.. all i see during the trip were MOTHS, BUTTERFLIES, KOMODO LIZARDS, SNAKES -__-"
outfit of the day :p
am i darker? more tan?
bidding goodbye to our favourite pool on the last day of stay
monkey!!
more monkeys!!! haha...
~~~
ok.. that's all for the trip.. i am sooooo looking forward to out actual honeymoon. hee... in the meanwhile, i am still greedy... i hope i can go HK this year :p
nite peeps!~ *yawn* loooooooong post it is.... spent an hr on this... zzz...
Bintan Trip 2009 ♥ (pre-honeymoon trip (which should have taken place in Dec 08))
040609 - first day (relaxing one)
on the ferry to our vacation~
we got into the pool almost immediately upon reaching. it was 10am (Bintan time)..
love this poolside bar =]
cheers!
do we look like crabs? hahaha..
love love~
hiding :p
i am SWIMMING!!!
muackSSS!
our first meal and last meal of day 1 (beef burger). this gave me terrible vomiting and LS-ing at night -__-" i did not touch tomato sauce and beef for the rest of the trip.......
~~~
050609 - second day (adventurous one)
just woke up =D
different look??
thirsty! lime soda =)
feeling bored.. hee..
spotted this when we were walking back to our room :p
vroooooom~
when can i really drive?? *rub chin*
in the lift
~*~
preparing for our mangrove tour (=
smile!~
while waiting for the shuttle bus at the lobby.
ok.. i am a copycat :p
blurred.. on the bus...
reached!!!
nice view~
local family staying here. the tour guide said there's no electricity there. so they usually sleep in after dinner time.. boring hor?? =S
the mangrove tour head office. we came here to collect information (small slip) on insurance compensation for this tour :p sounds so scary. hahaha...
charcoal factory (no longer in function le)
love this!
oil tank
fisherman's boat =]
mangrove
the little girl behind him is very cute :p
mangrove snake. it is poisonous, blind in the day, active at night. he kept worrying that it will fall off the branches and land on us o.O
ribbon roots of mangrove
oldest mangrove
the brown round thing is atap seed! yums! =D
pandan leaves.. they have thorns on the side o.o
tour ending, on the way back to the terminal.
~*~
headed to the pool again after the tour. hahahaha... our 2nd and last meal of day 2. club sandwich, nice! i love the crinkle fries!
night view from our room..
on the phone with a local... arranging for a tour at angsana resort.
~~~
060609 - third day (breathtaking one)
outfit of the day :)
used fancl for this trip for my face and body =]
this packet of chips costs me $5 -__-"
seaview
banyan tree bintan!!! USD700 for 3D2N stay!!! whoa!
angsana resort
this angsana tour took us 4hrs... why? they tried to sell us their laguna holiday club membership which costs..... S$24k!!!! siao!!! hahahaha... of cos we made 0 purchase la.. crazy leh! even though the manager worked out a $4400 plan for us, we still rejected. the plan will let us get 21 days stay in angsana 1 bedroom suite. but, the max we will go to bintan for relaxing trip is once a year, and max is 4 days per stay. paying so much upfront is not worth it.. furthermore i can buy 4 LV bags with $4400. LOL!!! he agreed too! but didn't say wanna buy me 4 LV bags :p *off track* anyway, at the end of this tour, regardless whether we sign or reject the package, we will still get a 3D2N stay in angsana 1 bedroom suite, valid for 1 year =) heh... but its costly to stay there even if there's free accomodation. cos everything is in USD... very very expensive lor.. zzz...
~*~
back to bintan lagoon.. keke...
spot him?? (he's waving at me)
then back to pool again.. LOL.. we kept shifting :p
feeling bored and snatched my nds from me -.-
a guy with a melody stylus and an nds with kuromi sticker on it!
candid shot =D
~~~
070609 - fourth day (3yrs 11mths anniversary)
squirrel! finally!!! something nice for the trip.. all i see during the trip were MOTHS, BUTTERFLIES, KOMODO LIZARDS, SNAKES -__-"
outfit of the day :p
am i darker? more tan?
bidding goodbye to our favourite pool on the last day of stay
monkey!!
more monkeys!!! haha...
~~~
ok.. that's all for the trip.. i am sooooo looking forward to out actual honeymoon. hee... in the meanwhile, i am still greedy... i hope i can go HK this year :p
nite peeps!~ *yawn* loooooooong post it is.... spent an hr on this... zzz...
6/08/2009 11:19:00 PM
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